AARGH

I have a headache - for the second day in a row. I'm bored (I'm at work), I'm taking tons of time off coming up (yes, yes, yes). The price of flights to LAX has gone up over $100 in less than a week (Booooooo). My kids have yet to give me anything for Xmas even though I told them I wanted some neat new potholders. I am jealous and insecure (so what else is new).

I read a National Geographic Traveler today and the newest Bookmarks magazine and now I'm going to go to Amazon and add some books to my wish list.


I don't have to be back here until next Wednesday.

There is supposed to be another FRIGGING snow storm headed this way. Not a "blizzard" but another major storm. I'm kind of sick of all this and I'm NOT going to drive to work in it and have to spend another two nights here.

Y'all can kiss my lily white azz if you think I'm doing that again.

RIP James Brown.

LIVE from the BLIZZARD OF 2006!!!

OK, at first I thought this was neat and part of me still does but I want to be home with my kids instead of stuck at work and having to stay in some hotel that has no liquor liscense. AND IT IS STILL SNOWING!!! AND THE ROADS HAVE NOT BEEN PLOWED!

Update 10:19 a.m. - Tattered Cover is STILL closed, my bank in Boulder is closed today (great..not) all the buses are not running, everything is stopped. I'm stuck here and I doubt I will get home tonight either. Our office is closed - no cafeteria, no nothing. This F*ing sucks! (it wouldn't if I were at home and NOT here). I can't stand it when the "perfect employee" comes to work when the building is closed. Who the heck is he trying to impress? There is no one here...

I WANNA GO HOME!!! I miss my puppy and kids and PD.

Oliver and his banana

I got my finger scratched in my attempts to get the perfect picture and it's blurry!
This is the cats, and at this moment of picture taking believe me it's 100% Oliver's and Oliver's ONLY, catnip banana.

He has the loudest purr of all 5 of my kitties.

Sooo, I got my hair cut and colored and I am now a dark brunette with a really cool shag. That was good. I got the Xmas tree yesterday and put it up. I went grocery shopping. I played tennis - very well too - for an hour and a half. On Monday I did Hot Yoga and then did a weight class with Jen out at Mountain's Edge and my triceps are soooo sore STILL.

The song that I am really digging right now is called "the Compromise" and it's by a band from Arizona called THE FORMAT. It's so catchy.

I had a small amount of humus and crackers for breakfast and I'm drinking some Kombucha. I can't even remember the last time I had a beer.

I want to look for a flight to LA and figure out when would be a good time to go in January.

I met this girl yesterday (Misha) at Salon Salon and she is going to walk Basti! She loves German Shepherds and going on walks and since we just had another murder in Boulder (always at Xmas time - Jon Benet, Suzanne Chase and now this guy) she would feel safer with a dog to walk. Basti is perfect for that. He's HUGE and he barks/growls at everybody, everything he sees on walks.

SNOW BLIZZARD WARNING!
YIKES!!! It wasn't snowing when I left this a.m. but it was dumping when I got to work and the roads were already slick and getting covered. I guess I'll have to stay down here overnight - darn. Maybe go see a movie or to Tattered Cover or just to sleep early and sleep later getting up. Max is going up to Elboring Bora today and tomorrow too.

Good times.

Sunday, December 17

Last day of work until Wed/Thursday and then I have 4 days off!!!

Kathi and I will be going to San Francisco on January 31st and staying 3 nights at the Argonaut Hotel (cheap on priceline.com). It's #3 on the best places to stay in San Fran on tripadvisor.com (my reviews are written on there as "Kathismom") so we both are looking forward to it. I've already written to CCA and SFAI to schedule appointments for portfolio reviews, tours and interviews.

Skiing was great on Wednesday. There was lots of powder to be had and I took my K2 Phat Luv skis and just was bombing down the mountain. I was supposed to go tomorrow as well but I have too much to do at home.

Now the only thing I have to decide for tomorrow is if I want to do the hot yoga at 9 -10:30 or 12-1:30... and when I want to workout at Mountains Edge. Ok, I've decided. Yoga at 9, weights at 12, eye doctor at 3, Xmas tree afterwords. Tuesday, Tuesday, Tuesday - yoga at - oops, can't do it Tuesday. Hair cut/color with Jill Leitz at 9, then tennis at 1-2:30. Can't go to a hot room with hairdye in my hair, not only will all the color sweat out but I'll stink up the room with my chemical smell.

I'm on book III of The Dark Tower by Stephen King. I am rereading it.
I'm tired too. I stayed up too late last night.

I can not take this anymore

My feet are cold!!

BRRRR! I went out of the house with no socks on today and some little tennis shoe thingys that are wet inside and my feet are F*ing freezing!!!

Maybe some hot chocolate would be good right about now.

I've been reading my Wired magazine today and found an interesting tidbit about the world's tallest buildings.

By 2012, bragging rights to the world's tallest building will have bounced from Taipei, Taiwan (Taipei 101 is the current kink), to Seoul, to Dubai and back to Seoul. Chicago's Sear's Tower -the tallest building in the US today - won't even reach the top 10.

Lotte World II Hotel, Seoul, South Korea, 2625 feet.

I have to go grocery shopping tonight for sure. Last night I made a really yummy roast beef and mashed potatoes for dinner. The kids were suitably impressed. I did go do Hot Yoga yesterday and as usual really enjoyed it. I did not like the instructor though, she was very unfriendly. I'm tired as usual on my first day back at work but tomorrow will be better. It's snowing in Vail and I can't wait to go again on Wednesday (I'm going to charge up my boots and make sure they are dry inside). Not too much tennis this week. So far just on Thursday - 3 hours though.

I have a new favorite song but I can't remember the artist, I'll have to ask Kathi. It's so poppy and catchy! She got her SAT scores, I'm going to be interested in seeing what they were. I was looking at her ACT scores yesterday and she scored better than 99% of the kids taking it in reading comprehension. She also just brought home a report card/midterm I think that is all A's with a B+ in her AP European History class so basically that's like straight A's. She's so smart!

Happy Birthday, gosh you are OLD!

HAHAHAAHa. Ich habe ein witz gemacht.

Anway, to an old (literally and figuratively) boyfriend who is having a bday today, happy birthday. I hope you get to ski some nice snow this winter (unless of course, your knees can't handle it anymore).

Kathi and I went to Vail today and I am getting my skiing legs back. We made some long runs with no stops and my quads were telling me they were in pain but I'm fine now and she is sore! They need more snow there for sure and it looks like tonight and early in the week they will get some. I'm planning on going up with the GRRRLS on Wednesday.

I was very cold today skiing and my boots were cold too, I am going to have to charge them (yes, I have boot warmers) for the next time.

I had a really really terrible dream last night, I don't know what is up with all my bad violent dreams these days. Must be my mind working in overtime.

I played a little itsybitsy bit of WOW tonight already but am finished for now. I wiped out Max's account for $$ and sent it to my characters.

Tomorrow is another day.

Friday

Umi is playing with my swim goggles, she just knocked them on the floor and is going after them. I'm so glad I buy the cats such nice toys to play like catnip bananas that they can't rip up and they play with my swim goggles. Sigh.

Off to play tennis, go get dog food, Kathis skis, workout at 12, tennis again in the afternoon, cook an awesome roast beef for the kids, and do a hot yoga class. As Max said this morning, yeh, Mom, you'r working out every hour today. It's ok. I'm losing weigh and toning up.

One day at a time.

Update... I think I'm going to skip or go to a later yoga class as I'm POOPED. The tennis this a.m. was hard as it was just Linda and me so 1.5 hours run run run hit hit hit. Then the workout class I just took killed me as well and now I have to go play another 1.5 hours of tennis. At least this tennis will be easy (just doubles and low key). I have to pick up the skis still.
I'm tired!

Yuck.

Black cloudy day.

My son is so cool (so is my daughter).

Last night I took Max shopping for Xmas presents for himself. He wanted some new clothes and really needed some waterproof boots/shoes that fit for the snow/wet winter. We - together - picked out some really nice stuff for him from Nordstroms. I especially like the Diesel jeans he got. Ever since he started reading GQ, he's been up to date on what is "hip". He's just a good kid. We went to Whole Foods yesterday as well and I was talking with the cashier (as I always talk with everybody) about the fact that he had applied for a job but didn't even get an interview and it turns out the cashier's girlfriend is the hiring manager so he took Max's name and told him to apply again and he would tell her about him. Max had been bagging our groceries during this.

Kathi finished one of her required drawings for RISD. She has to submit 3 of them all done in pencil and this one is the best drawing I think she has ever done. When I saw it, I thought to myself, they will let her in when they see this.

Drawings
Three drawing samples are required of all candidates. Each drawing must be done using graphite pencil on a sheet of white paper measuring 16 x 20"; other drawing materials should not be used. The first drawing must represent a bicycle; the second, an interior or exterior environment; the subject matter for the third drawing is up to the applicant (you may draw any object, subject or situation). You may approach these three drawings in any way you wish. For example, your drawings may be realistic or abstract; you may choose to draw the object alone or place it in a situation; you may draw the whole object or only a portion of it, etc. Each drawing must be signed and dated, and if necessary, should be treated to prevent smudging in handling. Each drawing should be folded in half and half again so that it will fit in your application folder in the Admissions Office. On the outside of each folded drawing print your full name.

Didn't get in bed early enough last night for getting up as early as I did today.

Now I'm going to read the 13 1/2 lives of Captain Blue Bear.
Max said it was good as well as Rumo (which I will also read).

Today's listening music is Shpongle. I love it!

Sooo much FUN!

Nicole and I went skiing yesterday at Vail and we were all over the mountain! Bumps, groomers, backbowls, trees (me!!). Great snow, very soft and only in one place that we were in the back - West facing - was there any rocks/dirt to be seen.
We also ran into Scott the instructor I used to ski with in Devo. Kathi and I are going up this weekend. I hope they get more snow before then. It's so great to be able to ski during the week and once again, I'm so glad I have people who can go with me up there. NO lines at all.

I have a lot to do today, doctor's appointment, bank, Office Max, tennis for 3 hours straight, cooking, cleaning, dogs etc. etc. I hope I will have time to do a yoga class.

It's finally warming up some here too. It's 60 on the back porch in the sun already which is so much nicer than 10.

Amazon seems to be having some difficulties this a.m. or this POS dell that I'm on right now is.

Blue mood.

Outside, I'm masquerading
Inside, my heart is fading
I'm just a clown
Since you put me down
My smile is my makeup
I wear since my breakup with you

Still cold..

At least it is sunny but it is cold. Nicole and I are going skiing tomorrow and I have to take Kathi's skis to get tuned so we can go next Saturday. Some of the back bowls are open now. Max is at El-boring-bora today boarding without his helmet!!! Bad Max!

I am reading When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron (with dots over the o's that I can't make on this computer). It's not an easy read and I'm thinking a lot. I had another bad dream last night. It's weird how I can experience feelings that I would in my waking life in my dreams.

I wonder if they will ever figure out how the KGB dude got poisoned. If it was through his food or if he some how inhaled the poison. I've been reading about it as usual. That's pretty much all I've done today is read and listen to music.

Wow, I just realized that my options to insert links and stuff is gone from this posting. Hmm.

Today is the last day of working for me in awhile. Now I have my two days off, then two on, then 3 off!!! I'm going to get the Xmas tree next weekend or Friday maybe and put it up with nice lights on it.

I need a massage again. Sigh.

COLD - frigid, freezing, brrrrrrr

We got about 12 inches of snow here in Boulder and it wasn't even supposed to be more than 3. It is and was so cold yesterday and snowed off and on we didn't go skiing. I'm going next Monday and/or Saturday though.

Yesterday was a bad day for me, my timing was just off on everything and I was short tempered. I got lots of sleep last night so it's ok today. I missed the hot yoga class cause I was too late and couldn't find a parking spot and you just can't go into those late, I didn't have my sports bra on so when I went to take a cardio zip class I was bouncing all over and I didn't have any water with me so the instructor bitched at me for not drinking any water (even though I had drunk over a liter of fluids in preparation for the hot yoga class). I can't find my driver's license. The list goes on and on and on. Plus, my garage door doesn't still flush with the floor and it just lets in cold air like you wouldn't believe. I need to look into getting that fixed. Plus, I think I'll get the chimney cleaned out so I can have fires in the living room. NICE!

I had a bad dream last night. I was thinking too much before going to bed I guess and it came out in a dream.

I went to see my therapist yesterday which also might have gotten things going in my head.

Beautiful day outside today. Not a cloud in the sky and it's such a nice blue and everything is covered, covered in snow and it's cold and crisp.

I have tennis today!!! Yippee!

I have to figure out how to put some tunes in here. Right now I'm listening to "The way you move" originally done by Outkast but right now I'm listening to (aargh..what is up with me??) Kenny G and Earth Wind and Fire which thankfully, has segued right into a much more upbeat and more "Sara" early a.m. music ... a Global Underground CD featuring Nick Warren DJ'ing in Shanghai. I love the Global Underground CD's.

Today

I have ordered some of my absolute favorite candy - finally. I may or may not order a nice big marzipan stollen. (Yup, I'm going too..what is Xmas without stollen and lebkuchen?). I am reading my book and will finish it today. So far it reminds me of the little Mormon girl that got swiped outside of her house in Salt Lake City and the return of the Austria girl after being kidnapped and kept in a basement for 10 years, but we will see. It is entitled, "The Uses of Enchantment" by Heidi Julavits.



I'm a little sore from the Hot Yoga yesterday but I felt sooooo good after finishing it. I LOVE hot temperatures.

What else... I've been listening to more of Banco de Gaia I especially like the song, Kara Kum. I'm hoping my kids call today as they called me yesterday from Germany and it was midnight their time. I swear to whomever/whatever their sff is an idiot. Staying up so late. WTF? He is such an asshole. Such a challenge NOT voicing my opinion of him to them.

For fun, I'm also looking at this candy link.

Sunday morning

I am cleaning my room and thinking about what all to do today. I'd like to try a Hot Yoga class as I love hot, hot temperatures so much. Plus, I'm working on my flexability. Ha HA! I just got ahold of my trainer and I'm going to start working out with her again. On one hand I'm scared/not looking forward to it because I know how hard she works me and how sore I've been and how I've almost passed out and/or puked BUT it's all good.

This past week I've done yoga once, skied once, played tennis at least 4 or 5 times, done cardio/interval classes 4 times so I'm getting back into it.

I ordered a new Leedom helmet, new Bolle goggles (with lenses that adjust to the light), bought some nice new ski socks, dropped off my K2 Phat Luv skis to get tuned - I'm so ready for a good season. Oh, and I got some nifty new long underwear as well.

I was listening to one of my favorite DJ's on Radio 1190 this a.m. - she only does the Sat/Sunday shows and of course, found a great new artist that I had to buy a couple of albums of off Itunes.

The artist is Banco de Gaia. I bought both Farewell Ferengistan and Igizeh. I also bought this one single by this guy who goes by A.G. The single is A Giant by Design. Gotta love a hip hop song that samples, Do you really wanna hurt me? Great music.

Ok. I have to go buy some more corn for squirrely (I think I feed about 10 of them but they all answer to squirrel). I have to go downtown to return a shirt that I bought yesterday for a bigger size - I am not a small! I have to go buy some coffee.

Casino Royale - yummy..maybe blonds aren't so bad

"Perfectly formed ass" From this girls perspective not enough shots of it to come to a conclusive opinion to that statement but I would love to, and I will in the next James Bond movie, get a change to peruse it in further detail.

Why was he driving a GD Ford for Pete's sake???? Where was the fancy smancy BMW?

All in all a pretty good movie. Not the best I've seen but 3.5 stars out of 5 minimum.

Worked out and played tennis too yesterday. Then got tennis ratings for the year. I'm still a 3.0. STUPID USTA dynamic ratings my ASS. A couple of people I know got moved up to 3.5 that I know are not better than me but I guess that's ok cause I should be at the very top of the 3.0's now so can get some more hardware/trophys this coming year and I can play up whereas if you are a 3.5 you can't play down. Unbelieveable how they do the ratings. Whatever. I'm going to be like Hilarie was this year. Rated a 3.0 and winning at 3.5 matches and not getting my rating changed until now. I wrote my bestest and favorite tennis teacher to set up some lessons/clinic, my bestest and favorite personal trainer to start working out with her again and I SOLD THE FRIGGING LEXUS yesterday as well.

Skiing was a blast!

I'm so glad I have found some girlfriends to go skiing with! This winter is going to be fun. I'm going to go every week (or attempt to at least). One week on Monday and the next week (which I going on next Wednesday, the 29th) Wednesday. We didn't see too many cute guys today - lots of families for Thanksgiving week - but we are there to ski first any extra added bonus is just a plus. We made lots of runs and skied hard. I was sooooo glad to get my boots off.

I played a little WOW but it's just not the same and it's not really fun. I'm waiting for Heroes to be on and then I'm going right to bed as I was up and moving around at 5 a.m. today - getting stuff together, taking dogs for walk, putting trash out etc.

I hope the kids are having a good time in Deutschland with their dad. Tomorrow I want to go see Casino Royale as well. Busy day! Workout, bank, running around, getting bindings, etc, tennis, movie, getting ready for work.

I am not happy

I'm having a miserable day and have been having miserable days and it's so hard to keep my thoughts off and turn my feelings off. I'm going and I'm going and I'm working out and I'm taking care of myself and I'm going skiing on Monday with the girls and I'm playing tennis and I'm doing everything "it" says you should do when you are hurting but I'm miserable. I alternate between being very angry and very sad.

Screw this. I'm going to put a beer in the fridge and go walk the dogs and get ready for work tomorrow.

This whole post should be in black..with thunder clouds..dark, dark dark.

BONUS TIME!

WOOO HOO! I got an amazingly large bonus this year and a decent raise. I also solved a problem (I can call it a problem cause I'm not at work - at work it would be an "issue") at work yesterday that got Senior Vice President eyes on it.

Also, Frontier just partnered with Air Tran so I'm planning my vacation for next summer. I'd like to go to Cat Island in the Bahamas. I have enough United miles for a free flight to Hawaii so I'd like to go there as well. I don't think United flys to Turks and Caicos or into St. Thomas, I'll have to look and since Kathi wants to apply (she has her applications almost all done, now she just has to get the portfolio finished) to the Cleveland Institute of Art (she can get a masters in medical illustration), California College of the Arts and the San Francisco Art Institute that means a trip to Cleveland (I told her we ARE going to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame) and a trip to San Francisco/Oakland and then of course, we didn't go to NYC in October so we are going to go in the spring...so LOTS of traveling. I do miss going to LA for LOTS of reasons. Maybe I will still move out there in a few years. I would love to live on the beach or within walking distance of the beach.

Note - the Beatles aren't available on Itunes. Weird. I'm listening to a favorite podcast of mine - will add the link and they are playing a song of the Beatles LOVE cd (used in the new Cirque du Soleil show in Vegas). OMG, I just shouldn't listen to podcasts while blogging.. I just bought two cd's - one by an Australian band - the Cat Empire and now one called, Jesus H. Christ and the Four Hornsmen of the Apocalypse - they are currently singing a song called "Connecticut's for F*cking"...it's funny!!!!



Gotta get busy this a.m. Tennis this afternoon!

What a DAY!!!

Happy Fall!


Wow! Rummy stepping down, Democrats taking control of both the House and the Senate, Boulder passing measure 202 which brings us inline with the Kyoto Protocol goal. It was Kathi's first time voting and she was upset not to have gotten a pin or something that said she voted. She said all her friends at high school wanted to vote and were all excited for her that she got to vote. Plus, it was Nicole's birthday! And it was about 80 some degrees outside which is why I went for a jog instead of taking a nap in the car and now my back hurts.

Tomorrow I'm getting the Lexus all detailed and buffed out and then hopefully, it will sell the next time someone looks at it. I'm tired of putting money into it.

Today's interesting site is: seatguru.com which will tell you what seats are best to get no matter what kind of airline you are on. I once made the mistake of getting the seats infront of the emergency row in the middle of the plan only to discover I couldn't recline my seat at all. I also really enjoy shopping for things from Flight 001.

What's on the menu for today? Finish reading the November Oprah magazine (thrills), finish reading the Nov/Dec Bookmarks magazine and adding books to my wishlist on Amazon (someone has the music from the original Star Trek for their ringtone here in the vacinity), start another book - something or other. Workout. Go home. Walk the dogs, drive the kids or have the kids drive me down to the talent show. OHHH..I'm out of cat food..must get cat food. Same ol same ol but tomorrow... lots of stuff - tennis two times, working out, just having 3 days off in a row will be good.

Turning point - and no, not the old movie

OK.. enough of this shit.

Working out again. Lots and hard. I'm going to be so sore tomorrow from the class I just took this a.m. at 8:30 at Mountains Edge. I can't link with Safari and this blog thing so I'll have to go to the pc and fix it up. Now, I'm going to go to get a massage from my favorite massage lady (masseuse) for 90 MINUTES! Yippee. I'm going now so I can sit in the steamroom and shower etc first. Lovely. It is nice and warm and sunny today. Maybe even after the massage I will go see a movie. What a treat. And you know what??? I F*ing deserve it. Then I'm playing tennis with Max at 5 after which I will probably collapse of exhaustion and go to sleep at 9 p.m. again.

Wonderful way to take care and nuture myself and get my head back on the right way... refocus on me. First I have to get out of this disgustingly sweaty sports bra that I've had on since class this a.m. YUCK!

In MY world this would happen...

The 14,000 people that Rev Haggard ministered to and led, would realize that hey, Love is Love and it doesn't matter what sex is with what sex and it's wrong to say just because you two are males or two females, you can't get married and you can't be in love.

This is SUCH A PERFECT OPPORTUNITY for all those closed eyes to get opened. Instead we hear words thrown around like..."sexually immoral conduct" and "repulsive". Why oh why oh why can't something good come from this? Something ground breaking? Why can't all those so called Christians, see that just because someone is gay (of course, he isn't going to admit this, his "lifelong" problem) that they can still preach and be religious and be moral and be capable of teaching people about Christ?
AARGH! He was PRESIDENT of an organization with over 30 MILLION MEMBERS. Can you imagine that???

This world is so FUCKED UP. Alright, I'll admit it, I'm pretty angry these days. I don't like dark, I don't like winter (except when I'm on the slopes). I want to spend a year just experiencing spring and summer and not early spring but spring where it's not going to get cold and it's light early and stays light long and summer when it is HOT. I WILL do that at some point in my life. I have goals, I have motivation and initiative and I don't sit around waiting for life to "happen" to me. I am so fucking pissed off right now. Time to listen to some nice music - where is my ipod - and read. What to listen to... let's see?... I think, I think...

I am not afraid of you and I will kick your (MOTHERFUCKING - my add) ASS!

I'd like to go out on the tennis court and just hit overheads and do it well. Nothing like hitting a good overhead and/or hitting the ball so hard it scares the people on the other side of the court from you.... or going down the alley repeatedly on the same person on BOTH sides!!! Plus, looking really cute in a really cute tennis skirt/outfit.. (now I'm smiling!!) Sigh... Roger...

SAVE THE CHEERLEADER, SAVE THE WORLD!

Daddy does speed/meth and gets "massages"

Ahhh, the MORAL RIGHT!

So, Rev. Ted Haggard - threw the crank away (just like Clinton didn't inhale) and only got a "massage" (perhaps a hand massage..with a hand just on one stiff hard muscle that really needed some serious relief). HMMMMMM... I smell BULLSHIT Rev!!!
Married with 5 children and of course, is totally against gay marriage/same sex domestic partnerships. Conservative Christians are the worst. Close minded, bigoted assholes the entire lot of them. Do as I say, not as I do. Cnn.com baby.
ONLY YOU CAN DECIDE! VOTE, VOTE, VOTE!

I just finished, "Invisible Monsters" by Chuck Palahniuk. I have read Fight Club, Haunted, Diary, and own but haven't read, Survivor, Choke, and Stranger than Fiction. I don't think I have Lullaby. Haunted was the weirdest. Now, I'm going to start, The Wind-up Bird Chronicle.

Great workout down in the gym with my ipod and my workouts that I purchased from iTrain.com. I'd love to give another program a try (cause they have some great trainers like Keli Roberts) but unfortunately, their program/software is NOT MAC COMPATiBLE. Pisses me off that companies use the word "pod" in their names when they aren't MAC COMPATIBLE.

A real princess

I almost hate to post anything cause my picture of Gael is going to move down the page but Hailey is precious. She is named after the Hale-Bopp comet. She is soft like a bunny and drools when she purrs.

We here in Denver/Boulder/Colorado Springs area are under aWinter Storm Watch!

My co-worker is of subpar intelligence.

Science of Sleep

Kathi and I went to see this yesterday. It's pretty friggin weird but it had Gael Garcia Bernal in it. So we had to see it.
It had some really funny lines and parts to it. Like you know what they say about a blind prostitute..?

I WON THE COCA-COLA LOTTERY!!!

Bullshit. No one who knows me would actually think that I would fall for such shit.
Coca-cola lottery my ass. Although, I do believe if my fading memory serves me well, the reason that minister's wife shot him in the back and left him to die is because she got suckered in by the same kind of plot from Nigeria.

So, I finished Norwegian Wood. I also own but haven't read yet: Kafka on the Shore, The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle, and I've read a few of the stories in The Elephant Vanished and loved them. I have so many books to read. Norwegian Wood was very, very well written. He writes very expressively. I can't say that a story with at 4 suicides in it was, let's say, uplifting but it was so well written and in 1987 too.
I enjoyed reading and saying the Japanese names as well. I have two friends that are Japanese (Naomi and Sachiko)and they both are wonderful.
Interesting culture. I can only hope it doesn't get too "americanized" like China is becoming. That was the thing about Bavaria in Germany. On holidays, everyone wore their lederhosen and strumphosen and dirndl's and they shared that as a culture. The US? Culture? As I used to tell the Germans - hey, we have culture - McDonnalds and 7-Elevens (pathetic).

Got the ipod going - another mix - Finally - CeCe Peniston, Bloodhound Gang, Train, Violent Femmes, Boy from Brazil, Skye, Groove Armada, Rancid, Depeche Mode, etc, etc... goes from Dance to emo to whatever - kinda like my train of thoughts these days.

Saturday at work

Snow overnight in Bbbbboulder.

Bought 2006 Subaru Legacy 2.5i Limited Edition for Ms. Kathi and Mr. Max (mostly for Ms. Kathi) and will pick it up this week. Safe and reliable and all wheel drive. Perfect for Colorado. She's not going to take it to college wherever she goes the first year at least.

Listening to new tunes - gotten into Latin music lately and found a GREAT podcast from Poland (???) but broadcast in Micronesia (???) Ritmo Latino plus of course, a little Justin Timberlake (I had an erotic dream featuring Justin the other night - hotttt), new Killers single, got the Raconteurs CD, some My Chemical Romance (I'm NOT OK), Beck, even Jewel's new dance tune, Scissor Sisters, Robert Peter Williams (aka Robbie Williams - waiting for Rude Box to be released) and Rise Against - Ready to Fall.
I'm standing on a rooftop ready to fall (ready to fall)
I'm think I'm at the edge now but I could be wrong
I'm standing on a rooftop ready to fall

I'm also(thank you Neil)LOVING Javier Garcia "13"


Other than all that, I'm bored shitless. Done with my coffee, done with my trash read of Us Weekly, reading Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami, reading The Memory Keeper's Daughter, wanting to go see Shortbus but not going to go see that by myself. I loved Hedwig and the Angry Inch. I'm also waiting to see 9 Songs too.

Snow has melted, sun is shining and the world is good. Think I'll pop open the Mac and watch a few episodes of Heroes and Law and Order.

Monday, Monday

Tired. Sad.
Going to start reading, "The Memory Keeper's Daughter". Played on Hollywood Stock exchange. Drank a yummy, yummy Pepsi (not a Pepsi light either but a real one). Made an appointment to see my therapist on Wednesday. My day off. So far it holds, tennis, therapy and more tennis. Not bad. Looking for flights to San Francisco or Oakland, CA so Kathi and I can go check out art colleges there. Thinking about being on a beach somewhere. I would like to hibernate on a beach. Once I get down to a reasonable number of animals (like one dog and 3 cats). Basti is such a good dog. Last night when I was walking them it got to a very dark place and he started barking and it was because there were some people there. I went the other way.
Back to work!

Rebounds are like walking off a bullet wound

I've been having fun this a.m. checking out one of my favorite websites and listening to new CD's I just downloaded.
Site: www.loveshack.org
Music: Mexican institute of sound - CD = Mejico Maxico (great, great music) and the new Beck CD, I'm still grooving out to Mr. Timberlakes' new CD, and the new Yo La Tengo
and of course, 1190.org (SUPPORT COLLEGE/No commercial/TRUE independant radio - buy a WATT!)
I found the quote from the website.
Lots of tennis today, lots on the plate to do today and tomorrow.
Beautiful day here in the People's Republic of Boulder.

Things that I will always remember - to make me smile

I will always remember and have a super good feeling about:
Spending all day (pretty much) in bed on Monday with my two kids, Bastie and different cats off and on, watching Lost. Kathi and Max and I were all snuggling together and they were being such good siblings. Laughing and giggling and goofing off.
Riding home from the Green Day concert last year (?) this year (?) and blasting Kelly Clarkson, "Since you've been gone" and singing at the top of our lungs - this being Kathi, 3 other of her teenage friends and me.
Taking Kathi to register to vote and being so proud of her. Mom and daughter both exercising their right/PRIVILEDGE to vote at age 18.

Sigh.

I'm taking care of myself, doing the best I can - stopping myself (or giving it my best shot) from obsessing (which I'm oh so good at) and taking it one day at a time. Sometimes the best thing you can do for someone is tell them they need therapy. I wish Sarah had worded it like that to me. Get some therapy. I can't help you but someone else can and you can help yourself.
Sigh. I have to go to the dentist and get my old filling taken off and a new one put in. It's going to hurt and I'm very tired and right now, I'm sad. I don't get over people I love in a day, a week, a month and sometimes years.
Time to feed the dogs. Time to take a shower. Time to ask myself, "what would I do, how would I treat my daughter if she was where I was today? Is that the same way I am treating myself now? Am I telling myself it's ok? Am I hugging myself? Am I saying it's ok to cry and it's ok to be sad but you did the right thing? Am I telling myself, don't go look at myspace, don't go look at old emails, get rid of everything except the good memories? Throw them all away like Charlie threw away the Virgin Mary statues full of heroin (LOST reference since I stayed up until 3:30 a.m. this a.m. watching them all). Out of sight out of mind - does this really work? Out of mind, out of mind - spending over a year talking to/being a part of someone' life - talking to them everyday, sharing everything... hmm.. oh, right, I'm callous, snap, it's over. No regrets? HA No feeling sad? HA Pretend it all didn't matter? HA I feel, I love, I am sad, I am human.
One day at a time. Baby steps. It all is true.

What have I done??

AARGH. I have to learn to say what's bothering me when it comes up instead of stuffing it all down. I am f*ed up right now. I want to lose myself in a book, I want to crawl in bed with PD next to me and not move for days.

Australian open - Andy and Maria? Who cares!

It's ALL about Roger!!!

I had to post because I found a beautiful picture of Johhny Depp.
Here it is:



So the Australian Open where it is mid-summer right now and HOT (unlike Colorado where it is currently snowing), Leyton Hewitt is out already (boo-hoo), Rafael Nadal is not playing and my money is on a showdown between Andy Roddick and Roger Federer with Rog winning. The guy is AMAZING. Roger rocks. Yes, I am a member of his fan club and yes, I know he is only 24 (almost 25) but I also know he is a LEO like me!
On the womens side, we have my favorite Kim Clijsters, still in the running BUT she's injured. My money is on.... Martina Hingis and possibly Justine Henin-Hardenne. That side of the draw is much tougher with Serena Williams, Maria (is she or is she not bonking Andy Roddick and who really cares he is way too cute for her and plus her dad is a frigging freak and her shoulder and ribs are hurting her)Sharapova, Lindsay Davenport and I'll mention Svetlana Kuznetsova just because she is tough. Not very attractive (understatement) but tough. Serena is supposedly back with a vengence but I haven't seen her play yet.

I love my ipod.

Ashes and Snow - Santa Monica

Isn't that a beautiful picture?? I want to go to the exhibit in Santa Monica when I am out in LA in February. I found out about this artist and the exhibit by reading my Vanity Fair magazine and being the voracious reader that I am (I read EVERYTHING)saw the Rolex advertisement that mentioned it. The exhibit is also going to be displayed at the Vatican. Here is a link to some information about the exhibit in Santa Monica.

They are cleaning out the refridgerator at work and better not throw anything of mine away as I marked them all with "save" and my name. GRRRR.

What did you do this weekend?

Uh.. I went from a 32 to a 34 in WOW with my warrior. I finished watching the rest of the first season of Lost. I got my nails redone after breaking one in the parking lot of Costco. In other words, absolutely nothing noteworthy even though the weather was wonderful. I did make quite a few taxi trips to drop off/pick up Kathi and drink a fair amount of Baileys Irish creme.

Today however, I have learned of a disgusting practice (to me of course, not necessarily to everyone else). It's called metzitzah b'peh. Here is another interesting article about it. When I read about it my first thought was, hey, it's a boys first blow job, but I seriously doubt the poor newborn could really enjoy it. Basically, after a jewish boy is circumsised a man buts his mouth on the babies penis and sucks the blood off it. I mean GROSS.


I think circumsision is stupid in the first place. Kind of like cutting dogs tails off because that's how the breed is "supposed" to look. I would like to take this opportunity to mention that I do think the Carnictus (what is plural for that?)in King Kong look very much like penises and I KNOW I'm not the only one who thinks that.

Ahhh, to be young, smart, talented and MOTIVATED

My daughter wants to go to RISD this summer and there for college as well. How exciting and what a wonderful opportunity for her.

I like this statement: RISD’s Pre-College Program is oriented toward relatively independent young people. Students need to take initiative both in and outside of the classroom. If parents and their children are seeking a somewhat sheltered environment, they should consider the nature of this program very carefully before applying
I like this too:

WHY ATTEND PRE-COLLEGE?
· to develop a strong foundation of art and design skills
· to participate in a college-like curriculum in the visual arts
· to study under the direction of a highly specialized arts faculty
· to build confidence in oneself as an artist, a student, and simply as an individual
· to become adept at using a variety of tools, materials and techniques — from traditional to cutting-edge — in one of 18 different art and design disciplines
· to begin serious work on portfolio pieces for college admissions
· to experience art as part of an intense but short-term program before investing time, effort and money in a college program
· to gather letters of recommendation from a notable arts faculty/
· to create strong bonds with a diverse group of students who share an enthusiasm for art and design


I keep telling my kids if I had one thing to do differently, I would have applied myself in high school. I could have gone anywhere to college and been anything. Kathi has that advantage. She can do whatever she wants as she has wealthy parents,
and two sets of extremely wealthy grandparents and everyone of them LOVES her and wants the best for her.

I am struggling with accepting people the way they are. I see things differently and from a different perspective and that's ok. I have to let people do things the way they want to. I have to be ok with people not doing anything except talk, talk, talk with no action. That is just my perspective, the way I see it and they may not see it that way and that's ok. This is how people learn. I could say, do this, do that, and why haven't you done this or that, and how can you just sit around and do nothing, but it's not my place to do so and if I do, they will not learn it on their own. I can tell someone over and over and over that they should do this or that and just because they don't, I have to accept it. I learned this the hard way and I imagine it frustrated the hell out of my parents. They knew I was smart and tried and tried to get me to care about my school work and I didn't. I didn't care (the old "I don't care"). I floated through life. La-la-la, it will all work out. It wasn't until I took full responsibility for myself and my life that I grew up. I HAD to and I feel so empowered and strong and self-confident now that I have.

So, back to the wind in Boulder. Tuesday recorded wind speeds reached 70 mph. The strongest recorded wind speed in Boulder was in 1971 when a gust was reported at 147 mph.

The Australian Open is coming up. It starts on January 16. I hope Roger Federer plays.

Should I waste the space ranting about...

Myspace sucks. I hate myspace. I don't want to waste anymore time with myspace.
If you don't like something, you can either change it or accept it. If you accept it, that means you can't bitch about it anymore. I vote for changing it. I won't use it anymore, nor will I waste time/space bitching about it because it sucks.

Went to see King Kong yesterday. Awesome movie. A tad overboard with the dinosaurs and all the different bugs and stuff but I cried at the end of the movie. Poor King Kong. The way they made New York City look was great. I like Naomi Watts' performance and went and bought (fake money) stock on the Hollywood Stock Exchange in her to get an oscar nomination. I thought Jack Black was great as well.


He really reminds me of a young Jack Nicholson. Jack Black was born in HERMOSA BEACH, California. Wow! I know where that place is. I wonder if his parents or him live around there now.

Only today and tomorrow at work and then I'm off for 3 days. Going to Vail on Saturday for the first time this year. I'm looking forward to it.

Yesterday it was super windy. Check here for how windy.

Back to work. Or something. My ipod is out of batteries. Bummer.