My two new sweet puppies

Hunter, born September 24, 2007 and Bella, born 8 weeks earlier.

These two really give lawyers a bad name...

ADVERSE POSSESSION MY AZZZZZ.

What sort of people would actually do this? Perhaps the kind that would sue because they spilled hot coffee on themselves, or slipped on some ice, or are unable to accept and at the minimum acknowledge their own responsibilities.

I have some land. I pay taxes on it, I pay homeowners fees on it, I paid for it! It is mine. I let it sit for years without building on it. My neighbors decide to make a path through it, and to use it frequently to cut across to get to their back yard. Fine, no big deal. I'll share.

Then one year I decide, I'm ready to build my dream house on it. It has an awesome view of the Flatirons etc, etc. I go to put up a fence on MY PROPERTY.

Nope, my neighbors, decide that it should be theirs. They claim, successfully, that through "adverse possession" they have a right to it. Their crony, another judge in Boulder, allows this.

Then they want the original owners to also pay their legal fees and then they go back and try and get another 9 inches of the land! Keep in mind, this is land in Boulder, Colorado and worth a million dollars.

Pathetic.

FINALLY!!!

I AM A 3.5 tennis player!!!! Legit! BWHAHAHAHAHAAA.

It's because this absolutely gorgeous guy has my back (even though he doesn't know me from boo).

Bastie

I haven't had many dogs and I don't know as much about them as cats but man am I learning. The kind of things like, cats are prone to getting abscesses because they heal so fast and if you don't take them right away, it can be expensive. Dogs, man. I found out my dog had cancer on Friday (for sure) and he died on Saturday. He had started limping way back in the spring. I thought he had hurt himself and it would go away. It didn't. (I can just remember him going on walk with me and walking so slow and stopping and me thinking he was just being lazy and was fat and thinking now he must have been in pain). It's so sad. I knew something was wrong with him and took him to the vet in July right after I got back from Maui. They said he was "morbidly obese" and he had to go on a diet and took two x-rays of his front legs (2 views each leg). Told me to feed him green beans and hi-fiber stuff. He didn't stop and I was able to find a place on his shoulder where I could touch it (I'm moridified I did this) and he would cry. Took him back to the first vet. She felt him, couldn't find anything and told me to go to a surgeon. Went to the surgeon. Mind you I told both her and the people at the first vet I thought it was cancer. He's too young. He was not yet 3. She takes a few more x-rays and some fluid from his joints cause she things he might have an infection from a tick or something. Nothing. Scheduled arthroscopic surgery. Now granted she told me it could cost it up to $3500 so I was freaking. I sold a bunch of silver back to my parents. Now I hope they can sell it. I don't know who still uses silver. I used a different set all the time when I lived in Germany.
Back to point.
Did the surgery. It cost $2400 (I think. I'm going have to look). Took him home. Kept him still and on pain pills for a week or so. No activity. He was so glad to see me after his surgery. He really didn't get any better. Took him back for rehab meeting and to get his stitches out. Physical therapist notices a lump on his shoulder while she is massaging him - up where he was shaved high on his shoulder - says it feels like a lump. Doctor feels it. Says she can either aspirate it now or just take some xrays (without knocking him out which would meant that they couldn't get exactly the view she wanted. He was to mobile and tense. I take him home - we agree to think it is a sore muscle and I'm going to watch it more). Start him on pain pills again. Gets worse. Temporarily schedule a x-ray. Dr. calls my home number and not my cell phone (my fault - I didn't make that clear to them. Ya know where my cell phone is now? With me. Wait a week. Schedule more x-rays and aspiration. WEDNESDAY, October 17th get them done. She tells me right away it doesn't look good. The view she took when he got his staples out is completely different from the ones she takes today. She tells me she is worried. She tells me about Cat scans and biopsies. She wants to make sure I have some pain medicine. I do. She goes out of town to a conference and tells me she will call me. She calls my cell (which I made sure she had) and leaves me a message that she called. I call her back. On Friday at work she calls. She tells me he has cancer. She is not sure what type but she thinks it was Hemangiosarcoma (takes over your blood vessels) and Osteosarcoma which is bone cancer as well. It's my weekend to work Friday, Saturday and Sunday. My co-worker is out of town translation I HAVE to be at work. Thursday night Basti cries a lot during the night (he was in pain). Friday, October 19, I have Max take Basti to get a stronger pain medicine patch. Saturday a.m. I get up and he is just laying in the hallway by the front door. He doesn't stand up, he doesn't move. He lifts his head and wags his tail. I offer him some Boar's Head roast beef. He doesn't want it. I pet him. I go to work.
A few hours later my son calls crying and telling me Basti is dead. Grieve.

I get permission from my boss and thankfully, two wonderful co-workers step in and cover for me. I had Max and my mom take Basti to the vet. I want to see him but I also want a necropsy done. I go to the vet. Cry, cry, cry. I think I'm already loaded up on at least 3 Ativans. Drive up to CSU and drop him off for the necropsy. Thank you so much to N who went with me, even if she was a back seat, front seat driver.

The pathologist calls me on Monday and tells me he had a HUGE Osteosarcoma that was on his shoulder blades and had spread to his lungs. He thinks he had Hemangiosarcoma as well. Would it have made any difference if I had found it sooner? There is no way they could have amputated as it was right on his neck/shoulder area. Would I have treated him differently and enjoyed him more and made his life even better and most importantly, been able to assure that he would not die in pain or experience it? HELL YES.

My parents are telling me I should get some of the money back from the vet who did the surgery, that was unnecessary, but I figure it was unfortunately, a learning experience for her as well as for me. When I explained this to my parents they said, but you had to pay for it. Yeh, I paid for it. I put some of the blame on the first vet's who didn't do more x-rays and more investigation.

I have learned that when I think something is wrong with my pets, there is something wrong. I have learned that canine cancer is terrible, terrible, terrible and strikes a LOT of dogs, not just old ones. I have found a new favorite charity, besides the Red Cross, who I am eternally thankful for the cot they provided me in Maui when I couldn't get back to my condo. It is http://www.wearethecure.org/

Please give your dog a big hug and extra love today and enjoy all your pets as much as you can.

Sebastien Conrad - RIP puppy of mine

Bastie died yesterday at home in the morning. I took him up to CSU so they can do a necoprsy on him.

I am very, very, very, very, very sad and devasted.

Rest in peace my baby.

My Puppy Dog has really bad cancer

Basti just turned 3 years old and his body is riddled with cancer. He was in so much pain last night, I can't take it. My baby.

What is an ENIGMA? Or "The ENIGMA"?

FUCK.

A bunch of bad stuff has happened lately. Steve Swink died. N and M had to put their sweet kitty to sleep because she was very sick and couldn't breathe. Just bad things. People seem to just be sad lately. I know I am. It's very hard to give up and turn my back on a dream.

I hope Bastie is ok. I might have to get him some more pain pills. I hope he enjoys his swimming/treadmill this Friday.

I think I will go lift some weights.

I booked the flight home for Ms. K at Thanksgiving and I booked my flight out to San Francisco next month to see Ms. K. Now I just have to decide where to stay and what to do! I "should" be excited but I'm feeling kinda morose today.

I finished "The Emperor's Children" and I didn't like it. Pretentious.

I watched The 300 and I watched The Good Shepherd. I liked the 300 and I thought the Good Shepherd was crap. Matt Damon did an excellent job of showing absolutely zero emotion during the entire movie. Very, very long boring movie.

So, I guess my x boyfriend thinks he is an "enigma". Puzzling, mysterious or inexplicable.... hmm. Interesting.

Next trip coming up

I am going to go visit K in October and we are going to go to Monterey for Friday and Saturday night. Either stay in Monterey or Santa Cruz.

She has to see the aquarium. They have a giant octopus! Then I'm trying to decide if we should go on a horseback ride/trail ride or maybe sea kayaking. She has never been sea kayaking and I'm pretty sure we could see some otters up close and personal. They are so cute. I'd also like to go to Big Sur. That's a beautiful place.

Tennis season is officially OVER!!! I lost a total of 4 matches this season (I think, I'll have to double check to make sure and I'd better get moved up next year).

I called Susie Finley about the swimming/physical therapy for Bastie. It is so hard to keep him semi-still. He still is limping but it doesn't seem to hurt him like it did before. We'll see. Cheyenne kept waking me up last night with her chewing on her toenails. I was thinking she was chewing on my skirt zipper.

I played a little WOW last night with Lirael who is a 28.5. Gretchien and Moggett are both at the bottom of the levels needed for pvp and I wouldn't want to take them in a battleground being only a 30 or 40. I didn't play any WOW with Ssheena as I did get the fast ram for her and now have no tokens for Alterac Valley.

N wants me to do speed dating and I know tomorrow she is going to push me to let her take pictures and put them up on match.com. Not in the mood. Still hurt.

Actually, what I'd like to do is go home now. It's 3:30, I didn't take a break yesterday, so technically, I could leave at 4. The sfcw has a cough which is just terrible to always have to listen to. I want to go get a pedicure! K called today but I was on the phone and couldn't take her call. Bummer. I'm glad she calls me a lot. I know it will change when she makes her own friends and starts having more of a life.

I'm angry at my x. Stupid shit. I need to put a picture in here with this post. Hmmm... let's see.

BASTARD!!!

FUCK YOU, YOU STUPID FUCKING IDIOT.

There, I feel better now.

Chance encounter with x playing WOW this afternoon as my alt, Moggett.

A different view today

Don't you know I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid
I'm still standing after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind

I have some more lyrics today as well as a new viewpoint. I started thinking about this last night or was it this a.m. when I was awake and unable to go back to sleep?
Can't remember.

If XXXXX (all instances of "his" name have been removed from this blog and there is no way anyone could know who I was referring to, unless of course, they know me or him but...doubtful) wanted to and was truly in LOVE with his new girl, he could be posting things that I would look at and really feel like SHIT for looking at and he's not. Whether it is because he doesn't have a camera anymore (gave it back to me) or he's just too busy being in love to post any pictures or use her in any of his sketches or drawings or whatever, I don't know and I don't care. The fact remains that I am slightly OCD and look at his myspace and webpage all the time. If I looked and he had a picture of "them", it would hurt, hurt, hurt and I would feel tossed away even more than I do now. So just in case, this ever gets read, and I doubt it will, I'd like to say "thanks" for not posting stuff that you know would really hurt me and for maybe, just maybe knowing that and that being the reason you have not posted them. Of course, if XXXXX is just clueless and isn't thinking about what he does or doesn't do hurting or not hurting me, than you are an asshole idiot/idiot asshole whichever sounds better.

The truth is, if and when I get into another relationship, it's going to be with someone who has their own house or condo, credit cards, and an established career. I thought that going out with someone who had/has no money and really, no immediate future as well as no motivation and drive would be ok and it wouldn't bother me but it did. Soooo.. I can only wish all parties involved good luck for the future. Maybe one day you can actually rent your own place!! Or drive a car that you didn't buy for $500 and is a piece of shit!!! Or even have a motorcycle that works instead of 3 broken ones in your own garage!!

Enough being bitter. It's 8:51 a.m. and I'm semi-awake now after my earlier nap. I have books to read, movies to watch.
Book = The Emperor's Children
Movies = Disturbia, March of the Penguins and The Wild Parrots of Telegraph Hill.
I'm off to 24 Hour Fitness in about 30 minutes to do a weight class, then back here for the rest of the day.

I can't deny I'm hurt and sad. I've got a lot going on in my life right now. Basti's surgery, K away at college, heartache and plus, I'm doing Alterac Valley with Ssheena trying to get a fast mount put I have enough for a EPIC (purple) weapon now...

Finishing this post with some of the lyrics to a Enrique Iglesias song, entitled, "Don't you forget about me" (no, this is not the 80's song)..

they say love is just a game
they say time can heal the pain
sometimes you win, sometimes you lose
and i guess i'm just a fool
i keep holding on to you

i told you once you were the one
you know that i'll die for you
Although it hurts to see you go
oh this time you should know
i won't try to stop you

don't you forget about me baby
don't you forget about me now
some day you'll turn around and ask me, why did i let you go

Darth Federer (queue the music)...

My prediction, Darth aka Roger Federer over Davydenko in 3 straight sets, followed by a 4 set win over Djokovic for his 4th straight US Open championship!!!

I'm doing better today. I am bummed but at least I'm not having to take anxiety pills.
My X has "disappeared" from the internet. He has posted no new art, hasn't logged on to his myspace since the beginning of August and is no doubt, knowing him, telling all his friends I am stalking him.

Let's take a minute and define stalking. Stalking is threatening and makes the person feel afraid of being harmed. Am I doing that? Nope. Would I do that? Nope.
I never even confronted D, who my X husband is still with and who was having an affair with him. Why? Class, morals, ability to differentiate between what is right and wrong and acceptable versus unacceptable behavior.

I'm sure his new girlfriend will discover all the things he tries to hide all by herself and if she is as young as I think she is, well, she wouldn't listen to an old fart like me anyway. I was thinking this morning on my drive to work while I was listening to my new CD mix, Getting over You, and singing along to Alanis Morrisette:

You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her?

I was thinking and remembering how I felt totally smothered by him. How I felt like I was the only thing in his life and how he had no other friends or life outside of his work. So much pressure to always be there. How he couldn't make any decisions on his own. How he constently accused me of underestimating him, when in reality, I was OVERESTIMATING him and he proved it over and over. How much it really bothered me that he was just so clueless about how to live on his own and how to take care of himself.
How childlike he was. How much he liked to drink. C'est la vie. Let's go back to Alanis for a sec...

I want you to know, that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An younger version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre

What else is on my mix? "I want Love" by Elton John (I had to watch the video cause it has Robert Downey Jr. in it and I absolutely LOVE him).

I want love on my own terms
After everything I've ever learned
Me, I carry too much baggage
Oh man I've seen so much traffic

"Boulevard of Broken Dreams" by Green Day, "Not Big" by Lily Allen

Now listen I think you and me have come to the end of our time,
What d'you want some kind of reaction?
Well ok that's fine,
Alright how would it make you feel if I say you never made me
come?
In the year and a half that we spent together,
Yeah I never really had much fun.

Michelle Branch, "Are you Happy Now?", Weezer, "The Good Life"

Excuse the bitchin'
I shouldn't complain
I should have no feeling
This feeling and this pain

As everything I need is denied me
And everything I want is taken away from me
But who do I got to blame?
Nobody but me

WHATEVEEER. Two crazies don't make a right and he is crazier than me!!! Yes, I will admit to being hurt and wanting to hurt back. Stupid g*damn muthaf*ing idiot asshole.

Fine, I get it.

"it's not healthy" "I'm in a serious relationship" etc. I get it. I hope she adores you and worships you like you wanted me to do.
I hope she doesn't mind you not having very much money. I hope she doesn't mind that you say you are going to do things and then you never do. I hope she doesn't mind that you are a little uptight and inexperienced sexually. I hope she likes to drink as much and as often as you do. I hope she loves you and treats you with respect and doesn't look down her nose at you like I did, because you have no clue what is going on in the world and didn't even know what a 401k was until I told you. I hope she is your muse. I hope she breaks your heart like you broke mine. I'd say I hope she can turn you on as much as I did but I doubt she can - skill like I have comes with a lot of practice. Practice, another thing - you try something once or twice at the most and then give up. For over 8 years I have thought about you and wondered where you were and who you were with and how you were doing and if you would ever contact me. You never did. It was always me. I get it now, I really do. What you don't know and what I never told you was how crushed I was when I finally had to back away from you before because you were in love with Susan. How crushed I was when you said you weren't going to come visit me back then. How I cried all the time, lost tons of weight, had the shakes and chatters and couldn't stop. Seriously thought suicide. Very, very bad depression. Then a couple of days ago I realized, because those feelings are what I know. Those feelings are what I was taught by my parents. I am a worthless piece of shit. I am a failure. Most of the time, I haven't had someone to nurture me, share himself with me, or care deeply about everything that happens to me. For much of my life, I haven't felt that I am special to someone. For the most part, I have never had someone who really listens to me, understands me, or is tuned into my true needs and feelings.

When I received all the things I had given you back it was like getting a slap across the face. I gave you those things because I loved you and I wanted you to have them. They were yours. I think that you must deal with things by just wiping the person out of your memory banks. Nope, never happened? Sara? Nope. Don't remember her. That's sad. I'm sad. I just want to go to sleep and never ever ever wake up.

Yeh, I wish you a good life too. Thanks for the wedding dress you sent to my online WOW character. I guess that was just a joke of some sorts too.

I was not a bad girlfriend. I was a great girlfriend. I am not evil. I am worth remembering. I loved you for who you were - with all you quirks.

Fuck this shit

That about says it all.

I'm tired of pretending to be happy and that everything is great.

Basti needs surgery - $2900 to $3500 worth of surgery. There goes my bonus. I would spend money I didn't have to (hmm, I am spending) money I don't have to make him not be in pain and have a normal life. I LOVE MY DOGS. I LOVE MY KIDS. I LOVE MY CATS. I LOVE XXXXX. Good, bad, sick, healthy, grouchy, happy - that's just the way life goes. I am very, very, very lucky to have friends who love me too (or at least pretend to).

Sometimes, I just want to drive my car really fast into a wall or off a bridge and not have to live anymore. Some people want to take pills and/or slash their wrists. Done that. Didn't do it right. If and when I want to do it right, it's with a car. Thelma and Louise-ish - only alone. I think I have unresolved issues. I think I'm feeling sorry for myself. I think/know I'm pretty f*ed up in the head these days. Who knows? Who cares? No one.

C'est la vie.

Sad

Sooooo sad. Just depressed lately. Dropped K off at college, looked around Berkeley. Found a great big HUGE comic store, which is now my favorite out-of-state one. Ate a really good French breakfast at La Note on Shattuck street. That's where the comic store is too. The store is Comic Relief and they have a cat in the store!

I lost my license somewhere at the SFO airport, 3 flights that I was going to get on yesterday got cancelled by United. I got into Denver at midnight, home at 1:11 a.m., I haven't had any coffee yet, I miss my daughter, how can someone be in a relationship but hiding at the same time, why do I care, why do I have OCD so bad, why does my dog have to have arthroscopic surgery and cost me tons of money? LIFE SUCKS SOMETIMES. I need a nap.

I'm going to try to find some good things to think about.

So you know the saying...

I don't regret the things I did, I regret the things I didn't do?

Well, I really am regretting and do regret, blowing the chance to say...give me a minute, I can see you are upset about this and we need to talk this through instead of no, I guess I really don't get it. Oh sure, I have tons of excuses, my contacts were really bothering me, I was tired from getting up early to get the car all ready to go skiing (did you even realize all the work I put into that? and how early I got up?) but that fact of the matter is, I could have just taken a second and realized it was really important to you and we could have talked it through and gotten it straightened out instead of getting into a huge fight. I have lost much more than my best friend.

Unfortunately, you can't change things that have already happened but I do really regret not taking your feelings into consideration and am very sorry.

Off to play in another District Championships. I'm the only one on my team yesterday that won any of their matches. There were 6 of us. I played with K and C and won both the matches. Everybody else lost. Thank goodness it's almost the weekend and N and I are going out!!!

Today is my WONDERFUL BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER's birthday!!! I love her so much!

Sunday, Sunday

AArgh! Yesterday William Gibson was at the Boulder Book store and I had to work. Damn it all. I have to read the paper daily instead of a week later as if I had, I would have known it yesterday and not today.



Oh well. I went to workout and did the 24Grooves class with a guy named Teeq. That was fun. Then I went to Tattered Cover and got a mocha latte (2%ish) and I bought some books. One of which was Spook Country. I also bought Winkie in paperback (been waiting for it), the second book in by John Twelve Hawks, The Dark River (follow up to the Traveler - great off the grid story) How Soccer Explains the World by Franklin Foer.



I still have to make the lineup for tomorrow's daytime match, Tuesday and Wednesday's Districts and I'm not motivated to do it.

Oh yeh, I also bought a cute magnet that says: "Women and cats will do as they damn well please. Men and dogs had better get used to it". It has a picture of a woman holding a HUGE cat (bigger than Oliver and Buster and they are both BIG cats).

It's very hot outside as it has been all this week. I'm B-O-R-E-D. K and I get to have a "special night" tonight as M is gone. We have plans to watch some of last seasons Law and Order, Criminal Intent on my laptop. I can't believe I am taking her to college next weekend. I hope I can hold it together and not cry. This from someone who cried when she went to her first day of middle school, her first day of high school etc.. Not where she could see me of course, but after I dropped her off.
It will be fun to go visit her but both of our lives are about to change big time!

Good thing her laptop will have an icamera in it so I will be able to video chat with her. Of course, her college wants them to have Macs. Art = Mac's. She has to take a class next semester that will teach her to create using Painter or some software, so that's good. I'm getting her a laptop with lots of memory and a fast cpu.

I guess I read or watch a movie now. I already took a nap this a.m. My SFCW is not here today!!! I'm missing the finals of the Babalot Boulder Open and some good tennis today.

Saturday

I have found some neat stuff today! From reading the interview with William Gibson that is on Salon today. Second Life looks really neat. I could do with a second life.

a) Second Life

b) Juztapoz - Art and Culture Magazine online

c) LCSV4 - LCSVR (linked here from Juxtapoz - This is the Illustration news portal)

Off to go workout in about 10 minutes. Gonna lift heavy.

Tired today, probably because I upped my meds. Gotta do what I gotta do for right now. It's all good.

Think I will call G latter to make plans for next August in North Carolina.

I did call G! That was great and just what I needed.

Oh, I applied online to be on the new tv show LA Ink. I want to get a really neat cute hot, sexy pinup tennis bunny/girl on my arm and cover up the tattoo I have on my left arm. N will come with me when I get selected.

No title

I am not well and am feeling pretty fucked in the head.

What's up???

I am so sick of drama queens. If everyone who played tennis quit and pouted and acted petulantly after every loss than there would be no one playing tennis! Jeez.

I am reading and really enjoying the graphic novels of Fables. My daughter and son are reading and enjoying them as well. It's fun to pick out the different characters and figure out where they are from. Nursery rhyme? Book? Fairy tale?


I've been working out at 24hour fitness down here in Highlands Ranch. It's a nice gym and I like the classes. I took a 24Grooves class a couple of Sundays ago and had a blast.

We are going to have lots of grapes this late summer/fall. Last year we only had one very small bunch but this year we have at least 15 big bunches! Yippee!

M and I have been playing WOW again. It's taking me awhile to learn my old alts and what they can do/can't do. Great to be able to just play a bit and then quit. It's too bad they don't make Guild Wars for the Mac, that would be a fun game.

Time to load up on Crystal Lite.

I really would like to let loose with a bunch of swear words because I'm really ticked off today.
I need some good kick ass music like the Used (Liar, Liar) or L7 or something just F* you stupid f*ing loser ahole type stuff. Or maybe even the Waitresses, Wasn't tomorrow wonderful?

Get tough, don't be so patient
Get smart, head up, shoulders straight
Since when is it a disaster?
If the "S" on your cape is a little frayed?

Things I have learned from District playoffs

1) captains will stack teams. In a sense, I did because I initially had S and J as #1 doubles and Lisa and me as #2 doubles and K and S as third doubles. Because I let S convince me that I should play #1 and the other team stacked their lineup and put their absolute weakest doubles team as #1, Lisa and I won easily and my #3 doubles lost.

2) women can be really nasty and refs can be stupid. Case in point (and just in case anyone is reading this that "does" know tennis this will be easy to understand) I had a pair of tight undershorts on (UnderArmor ones - not tennis specific) and Lisa was about to serve, I was trying to put the extra ball in my shorts, I couldn't get it under there by the time she started her serve so I let the ball drop out and pushed it to the side of the court. We played the point and won the point and were about to start to server at 40-15. THEN two beeatches from the opposing team ran out and told the ref that the ball had fallen out. A) the point was over B) the two people we were playing didn't say anything C) the ref is not supposed to be talked to like that and D) according to my friend N, I'm not supposed to call a let because she said it's in the rules AND she looked it up. Stupid ref. Doesn't matter as Lisa and I won.

3) when putting together a team, make sure you have strong singles players as well as strong doubles players.

4) MAKE SURE that no one has anything scheduled (like a Fray concert) that would make them have to miss one of the matches. If S hadn't gone to the concert, she could have played and we would have won. Plain and simple.

5) MAKE SURE that all team members have the same attitude towards winning and improving as the others. I have no room on my teams for someone who loses 6-0, 6-0 and then says, even if you advance tomorrow, I'm not playing. 90% of my team really is working on getting better, lessons, clinics, practice, practice, practice and I have one or two that are just not at the same place.

6) People who self-rate and then win everything at level and play up and win at the next level should be disqualified.

It would be so easy to sit here and go, well if S had played we would have won, or if I had stuck to my guns and kept the lineup the way I had it initially, we would have won but I can't. It is what it is and we are lucky to have gone anyways and wouldn't have if D. B. (see #6) hadn't gotten disqualified and bumped her team out of first place.

Lastly, WE ROCK. We had an excellent time, played some awesome tennis and played our hearts out (and I played great too, if I don't get moved up to 3.5, I'm going to be SO PISSED).

OH, right now, Lisa and I are rated 4th in the state in doubles.

Happy Birthday to me. Next birthday, I'm going to the beach and doing mushrooms and getting WASTED with my bestest friends.
woo-hoo!

Today's BIRTHDAY BOY!!!

JONATHAN RHYS MEYER
So doable. Those lips. Those cheekbones. 30 years old today. So beautiful, I had to post one more picture..



Movies - Sunshine. I want to see this one in a theatre. I love Alex Garland as a writer. I own The Tesseract, The Coma, The Beach and of course, have seen The Beach and 28 Days Later. According to IMDB.com, Alex is also going to be the writer for Halo (the movie).

William Gibson has a new book coming out. Spook Country will be released on August 7, 2007

Lindsay Lohan is a mess. I think she is the Robert Downey Jr. of the 2000's.

The couple who had the sextuplets and didn't practice selective culling is down to ONE surviving child and his status is iffy.

I read that the new Star Trek movie is going to have Zachary Quinto (Sylar from Heroes) as the young Spock and Leonard Nimoy as something or other but not Spock. Maybe Spock's dad? This is all coming out at the comic convention going on right now in San Diego as well as getting mentioned on CNN.com this a.m.




I'm on page 350 of the new and last Harry Potthead book and expect to finish it today or tomorrow at the latest.

I'm very very very glad my kids are home as I've really missed them.

Woo Hooo!!

My partner, Lisa and I WON the 3.0 doubles in the Broomfield tournament. We had to play 4 matches to win and all of them were 3 setters... I am taking a few days off from playing right now. I haven't won a tournament in ages... it was pretty exciting and close. Tough crowd too as our opponents were from the Broomfield club. They were nassssty and mean.

It's SO HOT. Thank goodness I have about 10 fans and can spread them around my house. I sat in the sun today with my mist sprinkler thing on my lounge chair and read and drank water with lemons. Decadent!

Erase

erase my love
i bet you can't erase my touch
you're tryin' to replace
a feelin' without a name
with somebody else's face
in your head

Mika

Teams (BOTH OF THEM) are undefeated!!!

WOW!

Both of the teams I captain are undefeated!! We are going to Districts and State. We were in second place in the USTA league but one of the girls on a team that beat us, who self-rated herself as a 3.0, has won a couple of tournament matches at 3.5 and even won a mixed doubles match at 4.5!!! So she got disqualified and all her matches don't count so we ended up beating her team (with her loss)3-2!

The adult league (USTA)playoffs are the first weekend in August which coincide with a birthday I don't want to celebrate but what a great way to celebrate!! The state tournament is the middle of the week the 14 -16th of August. Plus, we will still be having our daytime and fall leagues!! Woo-hoo.

Now we all just need to stay healthy and fit and well and practice!


WE ROCK!!!

My hero...even more so

ROGER IS GOD.

Plain and simple.

Brief trip report - no pics

Let's see - best Lava Flow - Castaway Cafe (really good food as well and most excellent bloody mary).
Highlights - seeing octopus and it winking at me. Eels, turtles and way too many puffer fish. Body surfing at DT Fleming beach. Spa at Grand Wailea. Coconut ice cream from the farmer's market store near me. The Fish Market for the really cute nice very flirty guy who worked there and gave me a sample of freshly made ahi poke.
The fireman who guided the kayak trip with Maui eco-tours. The tattooed dude on Trilogy who told me about the Scythians and gave me some history on my tattoo. The water. Hearing the waves first thing in the morning and last thing at night. The Brazilian Cardinals that came to the lanai. The Maui Babe tanning lotion I used and how dark I am. Playing tennis at the Royal Lahina and at Kapalua.
The not so much highlights - the fire that closed the road and having to spend the night in a high school gym on a cot and made me not go down south anymore. Unable to see Big or Little Beach or go horseback riding or kaying down there due to fire. Coming back and finding out Kathi had been in the hospital a week in Germany. The constant parade of "happy loving couples" and "perfect families - mom, dad and the 2 plus kids. Other than that, it was all wonderful and a perfect, perfect vacation. I totally enjoyed doing whatever I wanted and being on my own.

Have to post a review on tripadvisor.com and figure out where to put my pics.

OH, those stupid cheap underwater cameras totally suck. I don't think I got more than one or two good pictures from them. The next time I'm going to buy a waterproof case for my good camera and take it.

Sara with a really good Lay (or is it Lei?)

Hmm.. testing to see if it worked. Whatever it is, it's something I haven't had for a couple of years or more.

This is the life...:)

I'm sitting on my 8th floor balconey at 5:54 a.m., with my wonderful Apple powerbook, watching the clouds change color, listening to the waves, which just may tie with a cat's purr as far as the ability to put me to sleep and relax me, drinking some freshly brewed Maui blend coffee, eating some yogurt and a peach and getting ready for the day. I've already checked CNN so I know what is happening in the world. I took some pictures off the balconey yesterday and today I will take some more. I am scheduled to go play tennis at 8:30 I thinks so after I finish this and get dressed, I'm going to walk down and explore that end of the beach and see how far away it is and then probably come back and get the car.

Now, I personally don't care, but .... the shower doors weren't cleaned and there was coffee grounds in the filter left in the coffee machine. Someone else might through a complete hissy fit over something like that. Me, I'll just take care of it myself.
Plus, I did check in early and the cleaner was here when I arrived so maybe she was just hurrying.

I met the nicest little unaccompanied minor, named Max, on the way over. He was very intelligent and we got along great. I think it might be cause I don't treat or talk to kids like they are kids. His mom is an artist, and going to have a baby girl while he is over here, his dad who he lives with most of the time lives in LA, and his older brother who is 15 is in a group home. I didn't go into any of that with him. I just said it sounds like you are all only children with all that age range between you. All of his siblings have different dads. He was telling me all about insects and showed me a book and everything. I love kids.

Then I called Nicole, cause I think I might have left the light on in the back area of the Subaru and if so, it will be burned out by the time I get home.

I took two Ativan for the ride to LA and 1 (REALLY NICE) Temazapan for the long flight and I slept like a baby. Now I'm fresh and ready to go.

The sun has now reached the top third of the island I'm looking directly out on. I think it is Lanai. I'll have to check. I'm so getting tan today. AND the farmers market. Of all the things to bring over with me, I brought some Paul Newman salad dressing that I added extra balsamic vinegar to. And of all the things to explode in my bag... it was an entire bottle of (duh) continuous spray spf 15 suntan stuff.

The little birds are visting me on my porch and looking for crumbs.

I put a picture of Kathi and Max next to my bedstand.

Oh, yesterday I went to Maui Dive shop and bought a new mouth piece/snorkle tube cause mine broke when I dropped it on the tile on the balconey, I got the coffee at Java Jazz, went to Star Market, and then walked down the street a bit to the ABC store (which I thought would be liquour) and got some Macademia nuts and a 6 pack of Kona Brewing Company, Big Wave golden ale beer. I started to watch a movie but fell asleep. I'd rather be up and at 'em now!

Carpe Diem!

Countdown..

I upped our membership in Netflix to 8 movies out at once and they all are coming tomorrow so I can take those with me!

The Good German
Battle Royale
Heading South
My Life in Pink
The Fountain
Volver
Blood Diamond
The Last King of Scotland...

and of course, I'm taking Borat too cause I haven't seen it. I found it in Max's room today - man, is his room a MESS!

La la la la la - LA - doing happy dance

Here is another picture of where I plan to be in less than a week.


I'm doing my happy dance at work and very, very excited about going. I'm looking at TripAdvisor all the time....and have gained so much info from the forums on there. I LOVE TRIPADVISOR!!! I guess I will need to book a hotel in Oakland for when I go out there in August soon and start looking into good ones.

I wrote the kids today but I still haven't heard from them except a short email from Max since they have been gone. He just complained about the flight over and that they had to sit in coach while his dad and *@#*$ got to sit in first class. I know they were going to Sardinia. DAMN! It looks beautiful too... look at that water.


LUCKY KIDS!

Somebody else is here in this building on this floor and they are making lots of noise. It sounds like they are breaking up lettuce leaves - they are just rustling around. No talking. I went to a farmer's market today over by the Tattered Cover (of course, I did have to buy about 5 books) and got some beautiful apricots. I think apricots are one of the most beautiful fruits. The orange and red blending...sigh. I guess I am in love with apricots.

I finished the big huge book I was reading today. It was kinda weird. Like it couldn't decide if it was a scary book with satan in it, a mystery, a love story or what. I'm glad I only paid $6 for it, put it that way. Brimstone

So today I learned about ODD. ODD stands for Oppositional Defiant Disorder. Very interesting. My children don't have it of course! Hey, even Dr. Phil has a place he recommends.

Ok, I'm weighing in now on current events.
1) Hellooooo stupid people that didn't do what the doctors recommended and practice selective reduction... Instead of 2 you had to have 6 and now you've lost 3 of them...duh. Stupid right wing ultra religious nimrods.
2) Paris Hilton is going to stop acting stupid. Hmmm. How does one do that when they ARE stupid and it's not an act? This country is way too fasinated with celebrities or what passes as celebrities and not enough aware of what is important.
3) However, Shiloh Jolie-Pitt is just the cutest little baby girl...omg. She is a doll!
4) Things are bad again (were they ever NOT bad?) in the Gaza strip. More fights and deaths come from religion than I think anything else. I think the entire world needs to read Dr. Suess's The Sneetches.


"Now, the Star-Belly Sneetches / Had bellies with stars. / The Plain-Belly Sneetches / Had none upon thars."

Gotta go.

Saturday

So, does this look beautiful or what?


I'm so ready for my vacation! The above picture is of Big and Little Beach (the nude beach) on Maui. I booked most of my stuff already - the horseback ride, the sail, the kayaking, and I called and spoke with both tennis places. I still haven't decided if I'm going to scuba dive or go to a fancy spa or not. For sure snorkel. We'll see how much money I have to spend since I'm paying for this entire thing myself.

I went out on Wednesday afternoon and had wayyyy toooo many margaritas. We had 3 there and then went and had a pitcher of margs at Juanitas. I just found out some of the stuff I did and say and it was not pretty. Outta control. Oh well. I'm going to accept full responsibility for it - I hadn't had a drink in about 3 weeks and I didn't have very much to eat. I was hurting on Thursday that's for sure.

OHH, I also got a really really good price ($178.80 roundtrip) on United to Oakland in August so I can take Kathi to college. I hear there is an Ikea nearby.

Ruth called! Gotta go.

Happy Birthday Mr. Laurie

HUGH BABY!!! It's your birthday - go out and celebrate!

Sad news. Roger did not win yesterday in the French Open. He played like shit to put it mildly. Missed so many first serves and breakpoint opportunities. Rafa was the better player (butt pick and all).
Other sad news, Premier magazine has ceased publication and I don't know what is taking its place. I'm at a loss. How am I going to know what is new/getting made and in the pipeline? I don't want to subscribe to Empire again as it isn't as up to date as I'd like and tends to cover more of the BIG movies. I like smaller movies.

Speaking of movies, I watched the trailers for both The Golden Compass and Stardust (Robert DeNiro, Michelle Pheiffer and how many couples has she broken up? Claire Danes) this a.m. I am looking forward to both of them.

Tennis match tonight. Will I maintain my undefeated/1st place in my division both team and individual record? I hope so.

Maui - in 10 DAYS!!!!!! WOOO HOOO!! I'm going to kayak, play lots of tennis, sun bath, snorkel, maybe dive (have to look at how much $$ I have for that)and I want to go on a 2 hour afternoon tradewind ride on the America II which is a racing sailboat. I'm looking forward to doing absolutely nothing other than whatever I want to do. I got a great deal on a rental car - $180 for the entire time I'm there which is actually 11 days and 10 nights as I get in at noon on Thursday the 21st and leave at about 8:30 on July 1st. I still can't decide if I want to order myself a lei for the airport - or just stick with the escort service later (hahhahaha - I crack myself up as Nicole would say).

Today is Bastie's first walk with Chris. I hope they both have a good time.

High School Graduation

It's a beautiful day here in Boulder, Colorado. Three area high schools are having their graduation today. The only one that matters to me is Boulder High School.

Xhusband, his girlfriend, his mom, dad and his niece are all in town and going. On my side, I have, well, I guess my son only he is split. My parents are of course going but I don't think of them. My cousin Nancy is in town too and she is understanding of what I'm feeling. My parents, nope. Clueless.

Getting the scooter back today!

Yippee! My beautiful Stella all tuned up and ready to rrrrrrumble.
I'm getting a cover, so the red doesn't fade and a new lock.

Tennis is going really well and I'm practicing my managerial skills with captaining my two teams and organizing and setting up practices/clinics/matches (who plays with whom, how many times, who is out of town etc..).

The French Open starts soon. I will be wearing my Roger Federer t-shirt and clutching my Roger Federer bear while he plays....

FINALLY!!!

Roger Federer beat Raphael Nadal on clay!!!!

This kinds of makes up for Chelsea beating Manchester United (Cristiano Renaldo - sigh)yesterday in the FA cup final.



Life is good, will be better once my back stops hurting so much, and my scooter is tuned up.

Reading:
The Gun Seller - by Hugh Laurie (yes, that Hugh Laurie)

Rant - by Chuck Palahniuk

Listening to:
Gus Gus, new Miguel Migs, Timbaland, various singles and mashups

Looking forward to:
Trip to Maui in June! Sea kayaking! Sunning!

Looking back at:
Tennis camp at Saddlebrook at the beginning of May. What fun! Didn't want to come home!

Today's word

Is "petulant".

How is one "petulant" from the heart? That is just a huge misuse of the word.

Idiot.

OMG - SOOO much MoNeY

David Beckham is getting paid

One Million = $1,000,000

A WEEK = 7 days

FOR THE NEXT 5 (that's 5 as in 1, 2, 3, 4, 5) YEARS.

I can't believe it.

Todays topics..

1) Democratic convention coming to Denver - YIPPEE! I wonder if I could work it? It's going to be exciting that's for sure.
2) Justin and Cameron - Take the "L" out of lover and it's OVER. So are Drew and Fabrizio (or whatever his name is/was)
3) permenant eyeliner - omg, I had this done yesterday and I have never been in so much pain. I had to take one of Max's vicodin and tylenols when I was done and my teeth were chattering I was in such pain. My eyes are all swollen now. However, once it goes down it will look marvelous.
4) weather - colder than a witchs' titty. Snow. Ice. Cold.
5) SFCW and his sf*ing cough. - starts yacking at me as soon as I get 1/3 of the way into my cube about crap that I could really care less about. Total idiot. Can't even figure out how to upgrade his software. No as in NO common sense. NO street smarts
6) BECKS comes to LA LA LAND!!! WOOO HOOO! David Beckham and skinny, never eats anything Victoria aka Posh Spice plus their two boys are coming to the USA!!! Becks is going to play for the LA Galaxy! Man, would I love to go to a soccer match and see him. Rumour has it the next "big" star to get the $$$ dangled in front of his eyes is going to be Renaldo.
7) and many more.


Kathi send her slides and application to RISD today and should hear back the first week of April whether or not she gets in.

I ordered some LOVELY new bras from Bare Necessities - I love the push up ones. I feel so (am so) voluptuous.



Still reading Captain Bluebear, playing WOW with my little rogue, Ms. Moggett (the cat from Lireal/Sabriel)and totally totally getting into the PVP part of the game. Yesterday was the first time I went into Arathi Basin. I'm reading up on how to play and the different strategies for PVP. Next TUESDAY, JANUARY 15th the Burning Crusade expansion pack comes out and I'm predicting lines outside of the game stores on Monday night. Heck, I'd almost like to go get it at midnight myself and play 24/7...(what am I saying...???). If you have flash and want a preview...
try this link for a little minigame. FUN!

It's 2007!

Survived the holidays, two blizzards (or one blizzard and another big snowstorm), finally got and took some time off. Life is good even if my room is a mess. Started playing World of Warcraft again but NOT AS MUCH. I'm looking at it like I had to/have to with my cat addiction. I did at one time have 9 cats. That was too much. 5 is plenty and even though I would LOVE to adopt more I'm not going to until some of the ones I have aren't around anymore (and that's going to be a long time). So, even though I want to, sometimes, and could, most of the time, play WOW all the time, I'm not going to. If I want to do something long, like a dungeon, I'm going to plan it in advance. Otherwise, I'm focusing on doing other things instead of playing.

I am so glad my co-worker is taking today off and Monday and Tuesday. I'm not going to have to hear the word "confused" for 3 days! I have also just decided I really dislike beards and facial hair. Yuck.




I got a Nintendo DS for Xmas and have been playing Magical Starsign. It's got great graphics. I'm having tons of fun with it. I also got the Nintendogs Chihuahua and friends game and made myself a girl german shepherd named "Susy". I can't play it at work because you have to talk to the DS and the dog "listens" and responds. I also ordered Phoenix Wright - Ace Attorney and Trauma Center - under the knife. Kathi and I will share them.

Histories are more full of examples of the fidelity of dogs than of friends.

Alexander Pope