Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Actually..this sucks.

I'm currently have an extremely hard time dealing with this layoff. I'm trying to not think about it too much right now but, damn. I didn't get to say goodbye to my guys on the east coast, Rafa, Brian and my good bud, Mike. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. Thank goodness there are pharmaceuticals. Last night I took 3 .25 Xanax, celebrated 4:20, and had a beer.
On the plus side, it is an amazingly wonderful fallish/late summer day and i'm going to take Ms. Bella out for a nice walk along a stream so she can swim. Maybe when Nicole comes home or after a nap.

I'm going to see Mika two times next Month, going to Oakland twice, going to see American Idiot. Maybe I should look for a job in the bay area and just commute??? That could be fun or work from home....

What to do, what to do... what to do. Listen to dance music. I have not been this into a musician/singer/songwriter since Prince. Mika has it all. Here is one of my favorite videos.

Sunday, June 07, 2009

The latest

I have watched:
The Reader - loved it
Nick and Norahs Infinite Playlist - really, really loved it and could totally tell it was written by women.
Rachel getting married - Anne Hathaway was amazing, but the music in the movie drove me up the wall. I hate that kind of music and that guy's voice really grated.
The curious case of Benjamin Button - great movie, looooong. Brad Pitt is hot.
Tell No One - French film, the under-appreciated Kristin Scott Thomas was as usual amazing.
The Counterfeiters - great movie. Holocaust setting
The Visitor - great movie as well. Sad.

I have read a lot too:
So many I will have to add them later.

ROGER WON THE FRENCH OPEN BECOMING ONLY THE 5th MAN to WIN ALL 4 GRAND SLAMS! I LOVE ROGER!!!

Wrestling with accepting the fact that not everyone wants to have a natural birth and many women are just scared of the pain. Even women who don't want to take any drugs that are prescribed to them for whatever reason, to sleep, to stop anxiety etc. but there is pain medicine in epidurals which does pass to the baby. I don't know, I guess I was so excited about having a baby and being a mom, I wanted the birth to be what is supposed to be the best for the baby. To enter into the world and not immediately get rubbed down, the cord clamped and cut, take away from me but laid on my chest, to be alert and to feel everything. I believe that the woman's emotional state goes over to the baby. If someone doesn't want the child, doesn't express love towards the baby while it is growing inside, the baby will know that. If the birth is artificial and started unnaturally, it just starts the baby off wrong. I've seen these YouTubes and the moms are laying there going, yes, epidurals.. I can't feel anything. Great. That's the solution then, just don't feel anything. Longer labor, baby not as alert, etc. After giving birth naturally, combined with the stupid asshole I was married to having an affair and having to make decisions and get through things with no help, I feel so strong. It is just hard for me to understand why mothers to be would think about themselves before their babies. I am beginning to see a trend in my liking people who put themselves first above all else.

It's all about ME. I like living where I do so if you don't like where we are living, tough. Hey, I haven't seen you in 20 some years, let me talk about myself, my kids the entire time and ask you maybe 3 questions about yourself. Me, ME, ME. Damn, I'd be looking for a way out of that situation as well and if takes the guise of turning religious then that's what I'd do. YUCK. BTW, as far as I know weird is spelled weird not wierd. My spell checker even knows that. The little girl who thought you were amazing has her eyes open. You blamed the missing $5000 on me and your friends thought that I had taken it. You did that on purpose.

Done. Roger Federer is an amazing tennis player and a delight to watch.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

pastie.org - real, who knows.. funny? HELL YEH

gunther: hello there
gunther: 1.You notice an unusual spike in TCP and UDP flows from a single internal source to multiple
destinations. Describe in detail the steps you would take to determine the type of traffic that this
represents.

gunther: 1.You have observed TCP connections to an IP address. The HTTP connections return a file
named a.txt but when you try to retrieve the file with your browser you receive a 404 error code. You
do not know the DNS name associated with the IP address (there is no reverse map). Describe the steps
you would take to retrieve a.txt. Provide a plausible explanation why another machine on your network
is retrieving a.

gunther: 1.You are presented with a list of known bad DNS names but are not allowed to monitor traffic
with network sniffers. You are asked to indicate what names are in use on your network without using a
network sniffer. Describe, in detail the steps you would take.

variable: gunther, homework help?

gunther: even worse than that
gunther: no, worse than accidental paste
gunther: lamer job interiew questions
gunther: I'm pasting them to prove how lame your average SOC manager is
gunther: these are meant to test my abilities
gunther: if it's not any trouble, I'll paste the lamest of them: question 4 about firewalls

variable: Sr. Security Engineer Job in Reston 2XXXX, Virginia US ??
variable: that one

gunther: lol
gunther: damn man
gunther: we going for the same job?

variable: gunther, worse

gunther: oh noes

***variable does the hiring
variable: ;)

gunther: sir I am so sorry

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Plus Minus Dining System

source: Cool Hunting

Managing food proportions can be a tough battle, but the Plus Minus (±) System by Soo Kwon helps keep things balanced and even adds a little humor to … more

The BACON store...

A NEAT blog and some neat stuff I would like to have and of course, the bacon store


David Trubridge - beautiful creations

China stem cell place and research

Saturday, April 04, 2009

This a.m.

The all famous and well known "They" thought it was really going to dump snow on us last night and made plans for extra snow plows to be out. This a.m. as I was driving in I saw 4 big orange snow scrappers on the exit ramp and I thought of this book, which I loved as a kid.



For your viewing pleasure.. another reason why Eric Clapton is God.